It’s up to God to make the first move

God let me down then, and so far as I'm concerned, it's up to Him to make the first move.  

There's something wrong with that statement, but maybe not what you think. It was made by someone who used to love God. Truth is though - that doesn't matter. There are only so many ways to look at our relationship with God -

1. We can say we haven't made up our mind about God
2. We can hate God
3. We can say God doesn't exist
4. We can love God

That's about it, really.

We can say we haven't made up our mind about God

Let's get rid of the first one right away.   He says He's God.  He says He sent His only Son to die for you, so that if you choose - you can have eternal life with Him, as opposed to eternal life in Hell. Let's be honest.  That a really big deal.  You really need to make up your mind!  If the Bible is right about God - you owe it to yourself to make up your mind.  By the way - if the Bible's correct, and you don't make up your mind, you're automatically in category 2 - you hate God.  At least be real with yourself - make up your mind!

We can hate God

OK - if you hate God - you hate Him.  You've got the free will to do exactly that.

We can say God doesn't exist

Of course - you also have the free will to say this as well.  As with the people who can't make up their minds - if the Bible is correct, this also puts you in the category of hating God.

We can love God.

Finally, we can love God.  We've made up our minds, we believe what the Bible says about Him - that God does exist and that Jesus died for us.

God let me down

So, where does that leave us with the statement - "God let me down". You've probably heard the saying - We only hurt the ones we love.  And from that, it's maybe easy enough to come to the conclusion that God loves us, so He hurts us.  However, I think that saying is backwards.  I believe, if we were honest about it, the real saying should be - we can only be hurt by the ones we love.  Seriously - it's the people we love that can affect us in a big way - what loved ones day about us matters - so does how they act towards us - much more so than people we don't really care about.

To prove that, let's look at the four categories on how we relate to God.

We can say we haven't made up our mind about God

If we haven't made up our minds about God - and I mean really, truly haven't made up our minds - God letting us down shouldn't be that big of a deal to us, since we don't even care enough about Him to decide how we feel about Him.

I submit, if we feel really let down by God - then we actually had made up our minds - and we had decided that we loved Him. we can only be hurt by the ones we love. We are hurt by what we think God did to us, exactly because we loved Him, and didn't expect what happened.

We can hate God

If we hate God - and I mean really, truly hate - God letting us down shouldn't matter at all.  How can we be let down by someone we hate?

I submit, if we feel really let down by God - then we didn't actually hate Him - and we actually did love Him. we can only be hurt by the ones we love. We are hurt by what we think God did to us, exactly because we loved Him, and didn't expect what happened.

We can say God doesn't exist

If we say God doesn't exist - and I mean really, truly believe He doesn't exist, not just "hope" He doesn't exist - God letting us down can't happen at all.  How can we be let down by someone who doesn't exist?