Do you think Jesus ever said
“Oh No! What have I done?”
We were at the Christmas eve service at our church – the music was really nice – violin and piano as the main instruments – so I thought I’d just sit and quietly pray instead of singing. And that question came to me.
So I’m asking Jesus – did you ever say “Oh No!! What have I done!!?? These people – they’re aren’t worth this!”
“Maybe it was when you were first born? Laying there in that manger. Not a five star establishment – although there was that one star up in the sky. Were you already thinking it was a mistake. Maybe you shouldn’t have agreed to it?
“Maybe when you were twelve – and you’re in the temple. You were there to learn – but the people were amazed at Your answers, instead of the other way around. Certainly, by then, you must have realized something was wrong.
“Maybe after that – as you were growing up – and got exposed to more of us. I mean – watching us from Heaven is one thing – but actually being here – being one of us – and being among us – when did you realize exactly what we’re really like?”
Somewhere along the line here – I’ve got tears running from my eyes. We talk / sing about how Jesus came from Heaven to be a baby, but really praying / talking to Him about it – it makes it “real”.
“Maybe by the time you reached 29 – before starting your ministry – you must have had second thoughts. Like maybe you’d rather just live out the rest of your life quietly.
“Certainly after starting your ministry – when we weren’t getting it – especially when the disciples weren’t getting it – You must have been so frustrated. By then You had to be wondering – what am I doing? I knew it was going to be like this. Why did I ever let Father talk me into this!?”
And then the answer came to me – No!
It’s not like it was anything audible – but it was clearly an answer of No!
And I’m thinking – No?
The answer – No! Never.
And I still have trouble with that answer. No? Really?
No! Never! Because I know what you could be!
That was a special service. A reminder – He didn’t come because of what we are like – but because of what we could be. What we could be without the influence of Satan.
What we think about the world we live in – corrupted by Satan – speaks volumes about where we stand in our relationship with Jesus. If we like this world – as is – we probably don’t really care much about Jesus – because we like things as they are. But if we feel like things should be better – then we probably do care about Jesus. Because He actually knows what we hope to be true – that things can and will be better. Thanks to Him.